This is, by far, my favourite month of the year. I love Halloween. I love the autumn colors. I love how the world slowly changes its face with the turn of the season. Oddly enough, though, I despise cold weather. Thus, I watch all this from indoors. Luckily, I've an amazing view from my bedroom windows.

I notice I had no update for September. Shame, that. My life simply isn't that eventful. Very little happens to me, and I lack the modivation to make things happen.

For example. A boy confessed to me. Its a new thing to me, someone caring enough to want to keep me around ALL the time. At least, that's what he came across as wanting. Its nice to know someone would notice if you disappeared. I don't know him well and my friends strongly disapprove of him. I definitely don't dislike him by any stretch of the imagination. He's been nothing but kind to me and he's truly adorable. But I'm not sure that the happiness of knowing someone could actually bring themselves to care about me that much is anything akin to what he feels. I'd love to feel more, I truly would. I hate being alone.

At the same time, I don't want to hurt him. Yes, telling him no hurt him, but I feel I did him a favor in the long-run. I didn't pretend to feel something I'm not sure I feel. I don't know. Perhaps I should have tried.

I don't seem to make very good choices.